SVA is still my dream school and I would literally do anything to get into there. If I don't get accepted, who knows what I'll end up doing.
My boredom led me to searching "SVA" on Tumblr and browsing through the blogs that came up. I discovered blogs of current SVA students along with people who are like me, desiring to become a SVA student.
I went from looking through their posts, trying to catch a glimpse of what the life of a SVA student is, to comparing my artistic abilities to their artistic abilities. One in particular inspired me to sketch random people. People are what I always ending up sketching anyway. After I was complete, I felt as if mine was just as good as the ones I saw on the blogs. But once I started digging deeper, I started feeling like it had no comparison.
It really gets me how hard I am on myself about my art. I have no confidence whatsoever. I really hope I create the ultimate portfolio to shine a light on my artistic abilities. If not, my hopes and dreams of being a SVA student are crushed.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Bummer.
I feel like almost all of my friends have found new friends this year and are living life with them and here I am stuck with just school and Starbucks.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Starbucks.
I worked a 6 hour shift tonight. Which isn't bad, it's what I am used to working but I haven't worked more than 5 hours shifts in a couple weeks. Tomorrow I have to take my training class for Starbucks from 10 to 2 then I was supposed to be over but me being the reliable good person that I am is covering a shift for someone so after my class, I have to work a 7 hour shift from 3 to 1030, which will be the longest shift I've worked. Sunday, I work at 9 am which is the earliest I've ever worked and from what I hear, Starbucks is a totally different place to work at in the am than in the pm. 11 am is the earliest I've ever worked and it was pretty insane, so I can't imagine 9 am on a Sunday with everyone on their way to church, but I'll be finding out soon enough.
My weekend is pretty insane, but of course totally consumed by Starbucks. Honestly, I don't mind. I had no plans this weekend and I always get off on the days that I request off so it's all good, plus I enjoy having money in the bank.
Hopefully this headache that forced me to leave school early goes away. It went away after some extra strength Tylenol and a 4 hour nap before work, but now it's coming back. Ugh.
I got my post card in the mail telling me that I get my hard copy of my license on November 15th. It would be more exciting if I actually ever got to use my license, but I guess it's all just more motivation to save up for a car so I can actually drive.
Oh, I got a post card from Lynchburg College, and I'm officially applied. I just have to send my transcripts and SAT scores. I don't really wanna go to Lynchburg though, at all. I just applied because I got an email and it was free, and I was bored.
I think I should go catch some zs now since that's limited this weekend, like all the time.
Deuces.
My weekend is pretty insane, but of course totally consumed by Starbucks. Honestly, I don't mind. I had no plans this weekend and I always get off on the days that I request off so it's all good, plus I enjoy having money in the bank.
Hopefully this headache that forced me to leave school early goes away. It went away after some extra strength Tylenol and a 4 hour nap before work, but now it's coming back. Ugh.
I got my post card in the mail telling me that I get my hard copy of my license on November 15th. It would be more exciting if I actually ever got to use my license, but I guess it's all just more motivation to save up for a car so I can actually drive.
Oh, I got a post card from Lynchburg College, and I'm officially applied. I just have to send my transcripts and SAT scores. I don't really wanna go to Lynchburg though, at all. I just applied because I got an email and it was free, and I was bored.
I think I should go catch some zs now since that's limited this weekend, like all the time.
Deuces.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
After about 2 months, my laptop has decided to work. I read online how to reboot it and that it should fix the problem I was having and it never worked for me until tonight.
I am super stressed about everything. Between working 20 to 30 hours weekly, going to school, having 2 AP classes, being Editor in Chief of my school newspaper, and Vice President of National Art Honors Society, alongside applying to colleges, and trying to work on a portfolio, the stress level is currently reaching its maximum occupancy.
Family is pretty stressful too. My grandpa who was really sick for about 2 years, died 2 weeks ago and although all the emotions have dwindled down and my parents are back at work, there's still a lot to be done. Between his money, whether or not to spread his ashes, or have a military funeral, and a million other things. It just adds to the stress.
I have to say I am the most busy I have ever been in my life. Don't get my wrong, I like it. Despite being so stressed, I enjoy constantly having something to do.
Although I am so busy, I really do feel disconnected from all my friends and family. And most importantly, God. I haven't been to church in a while and there's no way I'm going to be able to do GCN this year with school and work.
It bums me out because this is my last year of adolescence, and I should be enjoying my family and friends because once college starts, it will never be the same. However, I'm just too bust for any extravagant social life.
I am super stressed about everything. Between working 20 to 30 hours weekly, going to school, having 2 AP classes, being Editor in Chief of my school newspaper, and Vice President of National Art Honors Society, alongside applying to colleges, and trying to work on a portfolio, the stress level is currently reaching its maximum occupancy.
Family is pretty stressful too. My grandpa who was really sick for about 2 years, died 2 weeks ago and although all the emotions have dwindled down and my parents are back at work, there's still a lot to be done. Between his money, whether or not to spread his ashes, or have a military funeral, and a million other things. It just adds to the stress.
I have to say I am the most busy I have ever been in my life. Don't get my wrong, I like it. Despite being so stressed, I enjoy constantly having something to do.
Although I am so busy, I really do feel disconnected from all my friends and family. And most importantly, God. I haven't been to church in a while and there's no way I'm going to be able to do GCN this year with school and work.
It bums me out because this is my last year of adolescence, and I should be enjoying my family and friends because once college starts, it will never be the same. However, I'm just too bust for any extravagant social life.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Wow.
I haven't posted anything on here in forever. It's just evidence of how insanely busy my life is since school started. And how much I hate getting on this desktop since my laptop has broke.
The latest and greatest news of my life is that I'm not a Starbucks employee! It kinda has made my life. I've tried working at Starbucks for literally the past 3 years, and finally after applying, making several Starbucks accounts so I could apply more often, and even sitting down and calling every location in RVA seeking a job, I finally got one! Everyone has told me that I look like someone that would work at Starbucks. Some people have even mistaken me for some guy that works at one in the west end.
Today will be my 4th day working. I'm still in training but I've started to get some things down. I know how to order people's drinks, even though it's still quite confusing. I even learned how to make some hot drinks. Lattes, mochas, and then just black coffee and teas. I've learned a lot about cleaning and stocking. There's still a lot more to know, but I love working at Starbucks already. I'll just be glad when my training is over and I get the hang of everything. And when I get to know all my fellows baristas. Everyone I've met so far is really nice and I'm gonna be able to get along with all of them. I'm just ready to get to know them so I don't feel like an outsider because they are all really close.
It's insane all of the places I've applied to, and my first job is at Starbucks. The place where I've always wanted to work.
Life is changing so much. I have a job, I'm a senior in high school, I'm seriously picking my colleges and writing my essays, and it's insane that the first two weeks of school are already dunzo.
I feel like my life is finally getting to place where I will be content with it, for once.
-AustinCHB
The latest and greatest news of my life is that I'm not a Starbucks employee! It kinda has made my life. I've tried working at Starbucks for literally the past 3 years, and finally after applying, making several Starbucks accounts so I could apply more often, and even sitting down and calling every location in RVA seeking a job, I finally got one! Everyone has told me that I look like someone that would work at Starbucks. Some people have even mistaken me for some guy that works at one in the west end.
Today will be my 4th day working. I'm still in training but I've started to get some things down. I know how to order people's drinks, even though it's still quite confusing. I even learned how to make some hot drinks. Lattes, mochas, and then just black coffee and teas. I've learned a lot about cleaning and stocking. There's still a lot more to know, but I love working at Starbucks already. I'll just be glad when my training is over and I get the hang of everything. And when I get to know all my fellows baristas. Everyone I've met so far is really nice and I'm gonna be able to get along with all of them. I'm just ready to get to know them so I don't feel like an outsider because they are all really close.
It's insane all of the places I've applied to, and my first job is at Starbucks. The place where I've always wanted to work.
Life is changing so much. I have a job, I'm a senior in high school, I'm seriously picking my colleges and writing my essays, and it's insane that the first two weeks of school are already dunzo.
I feel like my life is finally getting to place where I will be content with it, for once.
-AustinCHB
Sunday, September 5, 2010
The Ending of Something That Will Never Happen Again.
Today is the last day of my last summer of being a high schooler. I know I blog about this kinda stuff all the time, but when I'm up late with nothing to do, my mind always wonders to this subject.
I spent the day at Busch Gardens with some good friends, and it's insane to me that in less than a year, we will be apart, in college, going our seperate ways. My friends will always remain my friends, and I'm sure I'll make new friends throughout my senior year, but once we all leave and do our own thing, nothing will ever go back to being the same. Winter and Summer breaks will never start and end at the same exact time, we will have new friends and new relationships, and be busy with our families. Sure, we will see eachother, but I just know that it won't ever be the same.
I really do cherish my friends, my friends are like family, my friends are my family. And a lot of my friends probably mean a lot to me than they realize. I'm stoked for this last year, to enjoy the friendships I already have, and to being new ones.
I spent the day at Busch Gardens with some good friends, and it's insane to me that in less than a year, we will be apart, in college, going our seperate ways. My friends will always remain my friends, and I'm sure I'll make new friends throughout my senior year, but once we all leave and do our own thing, nothing will ever go back to being the same. Winter and Summer breaks will never start and end at the same exact time, we will have new friends and new relationships, and be busy with our families. Sure, we will see eachother, but I just know that it won't ever be the same.
I really do cherish my friends, my friends are like family, my friends are my family. And a lot of my friends probably mean a lot to me than they realize. I'm stoked for this last year, to enjoy the friendships I already have, and to being new ones.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Ready.
I'm ready for this year to be over. I'm ready to graduate. I'm ready to be 18. I'm ready to go to college. I'm ready to get out of this house and away from this family. I'm ready to be done with high school drama, and family drama. I'm ready to stop being looked at as a kid. I'm ready to be able to rely on myself and not my parents for everything. I'm ready to fully live my life, and do what I want, when I want and not need any permission. I'm ready.
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