Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Ready.
I'm ready for this year to be over. I'm ready to graduate. I'm ready to be 18. I'm ready to go to college. I'm ready to get out of this house and away from this family. I'm ready to be done with high school drama, and family drama. I'm ready to stop being looked at as a kid. I'm ready to be able to rely on myself and not my parents for everything. I'm ready to fully live my life, and do what I want, when I want and not need any permission. I'm ready.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
All I want is for my friends to be happy. I give out advice like no other. I get excited when my friends are excited. I get bummed when my friends are bummed. I get confused when my friends are confused. I do anything and everything I can for my friends. I even go out of the way for acquaintances if the chance arises.
I know I’ve done a lot of unnecessary, rude, and mean things in my life, but I still try to do my best in helping out others.
If my friends are happy, I’m happy.
Maybe one day, I can be happy for myself, but as of now, I’m good with being happy for my friends, which makes me just as happy.
New friends. Old friends. Friends are what’s up.
I know I’ve done a lot of unnecessary, rude, and mean things in my life, but I still try to do my best in helping out others.
If my friends are happy, I’m happy.
Maybe one day, I can be happy for myself, but as of now, I’m good with being happy for my friends, which makes me just as happy.
New friends. Old friends. Friends are what’s up.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Lovin Life.
I know I do some insane things and I continue to take part in things that I would be better off without, but it's just me living and learning, and making the best out of this life I have been blessed with. I know I can be a lot to handle, but I'm blessed with amazing friends that are there for me no matter what, and despite what they have to put up with at times, they're still there for me the next morning. My friends rock.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Stay Positive.
Last night I spent some much needed time with the man upstairs. I prayed and meditated on some thoughts, and situations going on in my life currently. After all that time, one universal thought came to mind: Stay Positive.
I tend to be a pretty pessimistic person. But God helped me realize that I need to be more of an optimist. To stay positive, even in negative situations.
I have a craving for new friendships, and for those friendships to be of positive content. I've decided that since I only have one year left before lots of changes come my way, it needs to be a year full of positivity.
Being negative in a negative situation doesn't make the situation any better. But overcoming that negativity with positivity will help things tremendously. Life is a blessing, and contaminating it with negativity is taking advantage of the most valuable gift that we will ever recieve.
I am a firm believer that every positive person and thought can overcome any negative people and thoughts in life. Positivity out rules negativity.
Stay Positive.
I tend to be a pretty pessimistic person. But God helped me realize that I need to be more of an optimist. To stay positive, even in negative situations.
I have a craving for new friendships, and for those friendships to be of positive content. I've decided that since I only have one year left before lots of changes come my way, it needs to be a year full of positivity.
Being negative in a negative situation doesn't make the situation any better. But overcoming that negativity with positivity will help things tremendously. Life is a blessing, and contaminating it with negativity is taking advantage of the most valuable gift that we will ever recieve.
I am a firm believer that every positive person and thought can overcome any negative people and thoughts in life. Positivity out rules negativity.
Stay Positive.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Moving forward.
Time is changing. I feel like that's all I think or write about, but it's what is constantly running through my mind.
Today I went to my appointment with my mom and sister to look at all my senior pictures and choose which shots we wanted to order. When we got there, they had a slide show of all the pictures and they had You and Me by Lifehouse playing in the background. I honestly thought my mom was gonna cry, and she said she was about to but she held it back because she knew it was gonna embarrass me (crying kinda freaks me out). As I was watching my pictures go across the screen, it symbolized so much more than just pictures to be in the yearbook and handed out to my friends and family. It symbolized my life, and how much it's going to change over the next year. This year is my last year of high school. The last year of my adolescence. It really got me thinking about how I'm really growing up. Family always tells me how old I'm getting, or how much I'm growing, and I never even give those comments a second thought. Until now, I've realized that I really am growing up. It's kinda scary how fast these past 3 years of high school have gone by. It's just evidence that this final year is gonna go by even faster.
All the seniors also started leaving for college this week. I'm mostly talking about the seniors from SEEK, because the majority of my friends are from SEEK and not school. The senior class at SEEK really was a group of amazing kids for all of us to look up to. Honestly, when I first came to SEEK, I didn't think anybody, especially that group, would even ever know my name, but that senior class became some important people in my life. Some of them became my closest friends, others just friends, and some just acquaintances but overall, they all were amazing role models. I don't think most of them realize how much they mean to me and how much I looked up to them, but I don't know what I would've done without some of them this past year. I really wish the 2011 SEEK class was as united and close as they are.
I've always said that I want to grow up and graduate and get out of RVA, and while that remains somewhat true, as the day when I walk across the stage at the Siegel Center approaches, I'm not too confident on totally growing up.
I know God has amazing things in store with me, and I know time changes, and we all have to be prepared to change with it.
Today I went to my appointment with my mom and sister to look at all my senior pictures and choose which shots we wanted to order. When we got there, they had a slide show of all the pictures and they had You and Me by Lifehouse playing in the background. I honestly thought my mom was gonna cry, and she said she was about to but she held it back because she knew it was gonna embarrass me (crying kinda freaks me out). As I was watching my pictures go across the screen, it symbolized so much more than just pictures to be in the yearbook and handed out to my friends and family. It symbolized my life, and how much it's going to change over the next year. This year is my last year of high school. The last year of my adolescence. It really got me thinking about how I'm really growing up. Family always tells me how old I'm getting, or how much I'm growing, and I never even give those comments a second thought. Until now, I've realized that I really am growing up. It's kinda scary how fast these past 3 years of high school have gone by. It's just evidence that this final year is gonna go by even faster.
All the seniors also started leaving for college this week. I'm mostly talking about the seniors from SEEK, because the majority of my friends are from SEEK and not school. The senior class at SEEK really was a group of amazing kids for all of us to look up to. Honestly, when I first came to SEEK, I didn't think anybody, especially that group, would even ever know my name, but that senior class became some important people in my life. Some of them became my closest friends, others just friends, and some just acquaintances but overall, they all were amazing role models. I don't think most of them realize how much they mean to me and how much I looked up to them, but I don't know what I would've done without some of them this past year. I really wish the 2011 SEEK class was as united and close as they are.
I've always said that I want to grow up and graduate and get out of RVA, and while that remains somewhat true, as the day when I walk across the stage at the Siegel Center approaches, I'm not too confident on totally growing up.
I know God has amazing things in store with me, and I know time changes, and we all have to be prepared to change with it.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
The Future Awaits.
I tend to over think and worry about things that most people don't even give a second thought.
I've realized how much things are changing and how it is time to finally start growing up. In less than a year, I will be graduating high school and turning 18. No more parents handing you money when you need it. No more youth group. No more just having to worry about school. It's the big time rapidly approaching. As my years of adolescence start to slow down, my mind has been going 100 MPH trying to figure out what I want to do with my life after I graduate high school.
College is what pretty much everyone does after high school. What colleges have you applied to? What's your dream college? What do you wanna major in? All of us are starting to get asked those questions.
As for college, I want to go to NYU. My recent trip to NYC has made me realize that NYC might be where God wants me to be. I've always loved the idea of the city, and when I finally visited it, I could've walked around those streets non stop and just be content with it's presence. I honestly feel like RVA is not where God wants me to be. SVA or NYU, I pray that I get accepted.
But what if I don't get accepted into a NYC college? Does that mean that God doesn't want me there?
The thoughts of taking a year off between high school and college has also crossed my mind. I would love to join the Peace Corps and volunteer in Ethiopia. However, it's a lot harder to get accepted when you have nothing but a high school diploma. The thought of doing a short term internship with TWLOHA or Invisible Children has also crossed my mind. Just a break to clear my mind and focus on real people, God, and what He wants me to do in my life.
I'm pretty sure I'll end up going to college. NYU for journalism or SVA for Visual and Critical studies. I have less than a year to get this all figured out, and my decisions are life changing.
I still can't fathom the idea that in less than a year, everything I've known will be turned upside down. But I'm ready.
I've realized how much things are changing and how it is time to finally start growing up. In less than a year, I will be graduating high school and turning 18. No more parents handing you money when you need it. No more youth group. No more just having to worry about school. It's the big time rapidly approaching. As my years of adolescence start to slow down, my mind has been going 100 MPH trying to figure out what I want to do with my life after I graduate high school.
College is what pretty much everyone does after high school. What colleges have you applied to? What's your dream college? What do you wanna major in? All of us are starting to get asked those questions.
As for college, I want to go to NYU. My recent trip to NYC has made me realize that NYC might be where God wants me to be. I've always loved the idea of the city, and when I finally visited it, I could've walked around those streets non stop and just be content with it's presence. I honestly feel like RVA is not where God wants me to be. SVA or NYU, I pray that I get accepted.
But what if I don't get accepted into a NYC college? Does that mean that God doesn't want me there?
The thoughts of taking a year off between high school and college has also crossed my mind. I would love to join the Peace Corps and volunteer in Ethiopia. However, it's a lot harder to get accepted when you have nothing but a high school diploma. The thought of doing a short term internship with TWLOHA or Invisible Children has also crossed my mind. Just a break to clear my mind and focus on real people, God, and what He wants me to do in my life.
I'm pretty sure I'll end up going to college. NYU for journalism or SVA for Visual and Critical studies. I have less than a year to get this all figured out, and my decisions are life changing.
I still can't fathom the idea that in less than a year, everything I've known will be turned upside down. But I'm ready.
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